January 2009
Three-Hundred-Sixty-Five Days to get me where i...
It’s not enough, It’s not enough, It’s not enough, It’s not enough… Where did the days go. What did i do? Who did i befriend? How did i change? Am i a better person? Do i still do the same things? Have i betrayed people? Have i lied? Have i done anything? What did i do with this year? Where did the time go? My life is ending before i even noticed it started....
December 2008
VAUGE.
being vauge is very sly. have you noticed like when you read horoscopes they say something and most of the time you can relate it to your life some how. you could do the same with generally most of them. you just read it and think “zomg this is so me!”. because you want it to be true. it’s like your brain playing mind games on you. so like if you have a dream and you look up the...
Blink182 Dream →
apparently i woke up listening to blink 182 instead of attack attack! i dont know how that happened but whatever.
Personality Disorder Test →
Paranoid: High Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate the schizotypal one, fits exactly how my brain fuctions. all the time i take these types of disorder tests; i always end up high in schizophrenia. i guess that explains me well.
invisible
everywhere i go i feel invisible. i feel no one knows me and no one has any opinion negative or positive about me. i want to be acknowledged just like everyone is, for who i am. i am clearly not invisible. i don’t want to be known for “oh yeah that girl over there who is okay.” i want to be fantastic or fucking horrible. i want to be something in your eyes always. if you took the...
1 tag
1 tag
1 tag
1 tag
my cousin jason thought robots were attacking me
cousin: rachel rachel!
me: what? *bangs on door*
cousin: let me in
me: no *bangs on door*
cousin: *bangs on door* what is that sound?
me: what sound? *bangs on door*
cousin: Are there robot's?
me: yes. *bangs harder*
cousin: RACHEL YOU ARE GETTING HURT BY ROBOTS LETTME IN LETTME IN IMMAAA SAVE YOU.
me: no *bangs more*
cousin: *in whiny/concerned voice* lettme in you got to lettmee in! I DON'T WANT THE ROBOTS HURTING YOU.*bangs on door trying to get in*
me: i am fine.*bangs more*
cousin: KFNWSUFGB*G RACHELZLZLZZZ *starts crying and talking* LETTTME IN. I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE.*bangs on door harder trying to get in*
me: no *bangs more*
cousin: *starts bawling* PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME IN. THE ROBOTS!!! *bangs like his life depended on it- on door trying to get in*
me: no
nothing is sometimes really appealing.
don’t you love the days, where you can do aboustley nothing, then ask yourself “where did the time go?”. it’s a crazy thing. but it is great when it breaks routines. i can not stand routines. i want each day to be different/random. i love the 2 weeks off we have for winter break this year. today i awoke at 3pm because i was up til 5am playing left for dead. i was playing...
Watchit was really funny the first time but then i got my camera to video it and it wasn’t as funny.